i have an abrasive personality when dealing with boys, they either find me haltingly charming or brand your firearm bitchy. there has yet to be found a happy medium. the science is still out
I mostly enjoy falling in love with the idea of people, rather than the actual people. Its the same reason why I don’t like to look up photographs of bands or musicians, because I paint them a certain way based on the tones of their music & dress them in my own subjective perceptions of personality & it almost saddens me to have them any other way.
I’m scared of so many things I used to love, and no matter what I do my physical abilities are always disappointing to me.
My biggest fear is being stuck, in any sense of the word.