my whole life is just a bunch of failed attempts at translating what’s on my mind into simply articulated speech patterns.
I am seriously in so much pain right now. I hate that my body is so susceptible to illness and continues to weaken from it, I should be strong. I stay active, I eat right & yet it seems like I’m always so frail & I can’t just have a cold, I’m completely wiped out by the tiny, lingering germs. Does everyone gets headaches & migraines on the daily? Light-headed, dizzy, crisscrossing eyesight if I don’t eat every two hours?
I hate talking about it, because I hate complaining, but tonight/today is just worse than normal & there’s no reason for this.
Sometimes, I look at humans and they are just the weirdest things i’ve ever seen & everything is strange & what even am i?
Other times, i look at humans & we are the most beautiful creatures, and i’m amazed at how pretty everyone is, especially if they don’t see it.
Everything is a trigger for my brain lately & I keep digging up issues I never knew I had or resurrecting ones I hoped and prayed were long gone. & even though the daily isn’t that serious, I just get swept up in a wave of uncomfortable, uncharted, dangerous, & disheartening half-thoughts without warning… its so much all at once.